What a lot of people don’t know is I was very depressed and overwhelmed during my second pregnancy. Adam was about 6 months old when we found out we were expecting our second baby. Different emotions went through my head but one that stood out and was more evident was my depression. I tried to keep it to myself as much as I could but then some days I just couldn’t and I would just vent out to my husband or mother. Trust me, we were excited about having another baby and Adam having a little brother/sister to play with, but we were too worried and scared to see it clearly then. Actually I think just me.
If you ask me about my childhood, I can tell you I don’t remember my life before my brother. All my memories are with him and that’s what I hope Adam feels when he’s older. The gap between my brother and me is almost the same as Adam & Hana.
Luckily Adam’s appointment didn’t go as bad as we thought. At two months when he had his vaccinations, he was fast asleep so he hardly cried. This time I tried my best to put him to sleep so it’s easier for him as well but of course Adam didn’t want to sleep.